Trudging And Thriving

It's a battle these days. There is a negative energy flowing all around us. I read the news today, oh boy. It's hard to keep convincing yourself that the world around you is going to hold up long enough to support your dreams and wishes. It's a trick of the mind to separate yourself from a world of problems, but we modern humans to a great extent seem to be doing just that everyday. The information you take in everyday tells you one thing, then you go home to a little bubble and you see something else. I know that many other people have had a burst bubble, and I can see the threats coming from different directions, yet I believe I can always keep my head above water. I try every single day to make my world better. Is it due to this effort? Is there a reward for being sensitive to the predicaments of others?
Does a person get credit for acknowledging the peril lurking on the perimeter while not succumbing to a crippling fear? If this is the case to what power am I attributing this idea of credit?
I'm a mixture of perhaps too many half formed ideas.

Each day there are new threats upon the horizon. I have to look for them. I'm thinking of this option arm mortgage trouble coming down the pike. Will this be worse then the sub prime debacle? Do I care? Will it effect me? Of course it will effect me. I hear the horror coming. The state parks are closing... How do you close state parks? natural spaces... how did they ever get to the point where they require so much expenditure to keep them natural, so much that we can't even afford to operate them? Are we missing the point of these things entirely? Are we humans left to our own devices so naturally destructive that we need to staff and pave our natural parks just to protect them from each other? Of course we are.

Mean while, back in my own little corner of the world I wake up and I go through my day. I try and say nice things to people and be aware of their problems. Some days I get overwhelmed and I take out my frustrations on those that love me most. I can be childish at times. I can be a very poor communicator. I have a sense of myself and I try not to take myself or any of this too seriously. Life's rich pageant envelopes me and I am so amazed at it's diverse beauty that I just try and pry my eyes open as far as they can go and take it all in.

I have projects that fill my thoughts constantly. Things exist only in my head and they matter in many cases exclusively to me. I get such enjoyment from my inner being. I have known lonely, but I have also been always my own companion. There is so much to do.

I have been spending evenings working on songs for my brother. I love them, they are very well made pieces of work. It's nice to have him in my life. I have been mixing a couple tracks for his solo album. I want to do a good job, if only to have something that can last, that can't change or lose it's value. This is my investment.