Everything Happens the Way it Happens

Recently I approached my bosses about the possibility of playing a larger role in the company where I work. I told them that I was in a better space in life now and that I'd like to put more energy into what I do for a living. They were very receptive. We talked about that which might be best suited for me and we came to a decision. It was decided that some restructuring needed to happen anyway and that someone would need to be let go. I really didn't expect anything to come to pass very quickly but yesterday my bosses made the big step of doing away with one position, essentially making room for my new one. I will now be in charge of all of the billing, and I'm very excited about it.
I have been doing some major searching of the soul recently and I'm finding out that my source of happiness lies in many varied directions, often in places I would not have thought to look. I haven't been sharing any of it on this blog because I haven't felt right about who may or may not be reading it. I am over that now... This is my blog and it's my life and I'm going to live it and write about it because it's important to me to honestly examine my life as it's happening and after it's happened through the practice of writing it down and occasionally reading it.
I am now happier than I have been in a very long time. Life can really surprise you, when you least expect it... (i love that sentence... it made me laugh so I left it in even though it's ridiculous) I hadn't really noticed in my conscious mind how much I had stopped taking care of what mattered most to me. I was failing in many ways. I failed in a relationship, and though it takes two to do that I admit fully that I failed at my part too. I was failing at work and I was failing musically. I wasn't following my own passions, I wasn't living life anymore. It took a long time to realize that but I have, and I'm keeping it in mind now.
I am now in a relationship that I will not fail in. I feel constantly loved and supported. Angela encourages me everyday to be the best possible version of myself, and I am doing my best to do the same for her.

I have been working hard to understand Sonar LE, a limited version of a PC based recording program. I am really falling in love with the idea of making my own music again.

Things are going to continue to happen, and though I may falter occasionally I feel like I've learned from mistakes I have made in the past. I am going to make more, but I'm going to learn to enjoy them because I now really understand that they will lead to better things if you let them. Thanks life, I needed that.

The Best Fix is Amputation

Saturday began way earlier than I am accostome on a weekend, In fact I woke up far earlier than I used to go to bed. I was up at 7:30 when Angela left for work. I had the unfortunate task then of rebuilding my computer since someone was kind enough to delete everything except AOL 7.0 from it. To even get to the point where I can begin to use it make music and watch dvds again took the entire day. It was frustrating to say the least and I was dissapointed that I had to do it but I'm was glad to accomplish it. I then quickly recorded a Demo of a new song I had been writing to send to Ronnie who will hopefully perform bass and drums on it. The song is entitled "in need".

I've been reading today about artificial intelligence and the turing test. I got on the subject because I was first reading about Lewis Carroll and the jaberwocky, which led me to Jabberwacky which led me to Turing... It has been a nice reading day.

Speaking of nice reading. I had my second book club meeting yesterday. As noted the book was William Gibson's Neuromancer, which I read entirly online. I enjoyed the book a great deal and enjoyed talking about it with others also. I really like everyone in my book club, for next month we will read The Lying Days by Nadine Gordimer, I will start it as soon as I find a copy.

In other news my parents finally got a dog! I can't wait to meet him.

Tonight I'm off to run then hit the drive in! I am happy today.

All the New - A bit of the Old

I Just got a new BlackBerry Curve and I have been loving it. Here is a some fucking around I've done with it.
Devin prepares vegetables with too large of a knife at his home. He had a pride kick off party that was very well appointed.

Here is Angela, looking cute as ever as she accompanied me to see one of my all times favorite bands Local H at the Troubadour. I had fun seeing them again, it made me feel 25 again.

Here we have another shot from Devin's & Dylan's Pride Party. This is their new wall paint job and new mirror. Dylan and Marc appear in the mirror if you can't tell.

Here is a still life from Angela's apartment. I was sitting on the couch enjoying the look of it when I snapped this photo. The flowers were a gift for Angie from thoughtful Devin when he had come by earlier in the week to watch "Behind The Mask, The Rise of Leslie Vernon" I actually enjoyed the movie a fair amount. It's a funny idea.

Frusciante the most little boy cat there is.

Me.


Sample video tour of the work place. It's not great quality but its nice to get that much video out of a phone.

My phone also comes in handy for having an Mp3 player and a Headphone Jack. I was able to last night lie in bed and listen to the first two albums in the S no S catalog. It was really a very fun experience. Listening to music that you wrote and recorded years ago is funny, it's like listening to hit songs from years back you haven't heard for years, only it's a totally solitary experience because no one else has any clue about it. It's actually rather amazing. There are aspects that are cringe worthy, but I was surprised by how much surprised me.

It actually led me to upload one of the early ones to the stagnant S no S Myspace, thus making it a little less stagnate.